Can I Get Another Chance???

Today's gonna be a tough day without hearing him talk to me. I used to love him, but after what he has done to me, nothing was between us. He was the one who asked me out, yet he's the one who dumped me! How can I accept that? He used to run after me before we dated. Now, he walked away just because of nothing?! Mom was right; dating a boy when you're 13 is pointless! But, I don't get it. Why would he dumped me over nothing? Is that because of what I did which I can barely remember? Or, him who doesn't love me anymore? Either way, I don't get it and I'm still hurt.
I walked out of my door to the bus stop. I decided to wait for the bus. In the middle of my walk, Brittany came by and greeted me. She's been my best friend since we were like 2 months old. Our dads work at the same company and they kinda had this little journey together to find our moms. Anyway, I greeted Brittany back. She seemed sad when she looked at me. Why? Let's ask...
"What?" I asked curiously.
"Nothing. Did you cry last night?" she spilled it.
"What?... No..." I hid my face trying not to show my puffy eyes. I got quiet, too.
"You did cry last night. Girl, be honest with me... Why did you cry?" Brittany asked like she doesn't know what was wrong. "Oh... Right... Steven. That boy... I'm gonna beat his ass and boil his head if he makes you cry every night. Now, can I please, see your smile?"
I had to laugh. That's right. Steven, my ex-boyfriend. Brittany's gonna beat his ass if he makes me cry, just wow!... "Hahaha... See, I smiled. Come on, let's go. The bus is here."
"Awww... I'd rather see you extremely happy than be with you while you're extremely sad. Okay, come on!" she pulled my arm and got in the bus with me. Mrs. John, the driver, knows us pretty well. She smiled and pat Brittany's arm while passing her. We smiled back and sat down.
Unfortunately, Steven was already sitting on our (Brittany's and my) seats. I gasped a little, but I tried so hard to hide my face from his eyes. I'm still hurt, okay?! What was I supposed to do? Face him and like, randomly cry in front of him?! That's embarrassing..
"Hey," greeted Steven. I smiled, I guess. Because my smile was 100% fake.
"Come on, Fiona!" said Brittany as if she knew what's gonna happened. I woke up from the awkward moment and followed Brittany to another seat.
"Sorry.." I said before Brittany gives me millions of words about 'not talking to Steven anymore'. She sighed and tapped my shoulder.
"I know you still hurt, but you can't just let him get in to your life again and wreck everything.. FOR THE SECOND TIME!" she explained with a sarcastic voice.
I nodded and stared at Steven's back. He was sitting in front of my seat. The moment Steven started to move and about to turn his head to me, I looked away.
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So, today turned out awful!!! Brittany kept her eyes on me the whole time like I can't be touched or spoken to. That was kind of scary. She kept doing that until I told her not to anymore because I'm gonna be okay. Well, right after I said that, Steven came.
"Can I talk to you? In private and just for a few minutes?" asked Steven, more like begging.
I had no choice, beside approving. So, I went to the place that only Steven knows.
"I'm sorry for the time I dumped you," Steven began. I listened. "Will you forgive me?"
I hesitated and said, "I don't know."
"Well, it's okay if you can't forgive me. But, I just want you to know that I still love you and hopefully you still do, too."
I repeated his words to myself before saying anything.
"Hmmm.... Thanks for your time, anyway."
Steven was about to leave until I grabbed his hand. He turned around, I looked away. I was trying to hide my tears of these indescribable feelings I feel.
"What's wrong?" Steven asked.
I looked at him. He gasped a little and walked closer and wiped my tears with his thumb.
"Why do you do this to me?" I finally talked.
"I'm really sorry. I wasn't ready that time. But, now I'm ready. I just.. I just wanna think about it first, and then go take a risk. That's why," explained Steven. "And, I'd really love to start again with you."
I smiled and hugged him in a sudden. "Yeah... Let's start again. Oh yeah, you have to explain 'us' again to Brittany before she kills you."
Steven laughed and said, "I love you. If she kills me, I bet you're gonna kill yourself, huh?"
"Pssfffhh... Wha-what? heck no!"
"Really?"
"Well, I'm sure I'm gonna miss you."
"Hahaha... Okay.. Now, let's go explain this to Brittany!" I smiled and followed Steven. He held my hand and walked with me to wherever Brittany stands right now.
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At the end of the day, I realized that love doesn't go away. It's always been buried by another feeling. But, if you wanna feel the love you used to feel, you can always dig your heart a little deeper and maybe you'll find it.