My Own Request

This goes to the tears I've wasted,
This goes to the sadness I've been through,
This goes to no one else, but me!


All this time, I was so stupid for thinking you'd be mine..
Haha.. Funny..
It's not happening!
NO! NEVER! NOT A CHANCE!
You know why?
'Cause we both are too caught up in one person,
You're too caught up admiring her,
I'm too caught up having a crush on you..


This goes to the endless night,
This goes to the broken smiles,
This goes to all my hope!


No, I'm not Juliet..
No, I'm not yours..
No, I'm not Taylor Swift..
No, I'm not yours..
No, I'm not her..
I'm not yours..


My stories aren't finished..
But, it's not going anywhere either
Juliet lost her Romeo,
The princess died 'cause no prince came to wake her up,
The song writer got tired and stopped writing songs about him,
I'm tired..
Tired of all the shit I've done,
Only for you..
'Cause yes, I love you that much..


This goes to the pointless daydreams,
This goes to the mindless fairytales,
This goes to the disappointing sweet dreams..


Yup, it's like everyday you're here..
Here sitting and marking spots in my head,
Here capturing scars in my heart,
Here just to see me break down and stumble..
Here to laugh at me when you get her..
Yeah..


Who's the villain now?
Her? No..
Who's the bad guy now?
You? Yes, baby..
You are.
But, loving means you need to face your biggest fear..
I need to face the bad guy,
I need to learn how to treat him the way he needs to be treated,
I need to let him know..


This goes to me..
This goes to the girl whose pillows are all wet,
'Cause every night she can't stop crying..


I'm not the girl in a romance novel..
I'm not the girl in a romance movie..
I'm not the girl..
Not the girl who owns your heart.
I'm not..


This goes to the useless poems,
This goes to the unheard songs about you,
This goes to every guitar I've used to make a melody for you..


Sometime today, or tomorrow,
I have to let you go..
Set you free just to know if you would run after me..
Or maybe I'm just gonna hold on,
Waiting for the first person who'll let go..
No, maybe I'm just gonna stop.
To observe you from afar..
Because getting closer to you,
But knowing you like her like I like you...
It hurts, babe..
IT HURTS!


This goes to the careless handwriting in my diary,
This goes to the broken pens I've used,
This goes to all the pages of my heart..


I wish I could forget you and move on..
But, saying isn't as easy as doing..
I wish I could hate you like I want to..
But, cursing isn't as lighter as complimenting..
I wish I could just at least let my heart stop skipping beats,
Whenever you walk by..


This goes to me..
To all my lifeless heart..
To all my thoughts,
To all parts of me that you have,
To all parts of my heart that you break,
To all parts of my brain that you mail-function..


I wanna be yours..
For once in my life, living my own dream..
But, there are dreams that don't come true..
This one is one of those..


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Sori, gue ngeskip request elo semua. Maaf banget. Soalnya, tadi hati gue lagi nggak tenang. Alhasil, gue bikin buat diri gue sendiri. Maaf sebesar-besarnya.
Elo mau tau apa yang gue rasain? Haha.. Jangan, deh. Mending baca ulang puisi ini dan elo pikir sendiri apa yang lagi gue rasain. Yang jelas nggak bahagia. :(
Tapi, gue janji bakal nyelesaiin request elo. Sabar, ya.. :')